It has been raining a lot lately. I curled up under the blanket right after work last night and by 8, the light was off. I thought of work and curled up even more. My stomach was grumbling but I kept myself in that position.
A guy I have been talking to from Okcupid texted me. We chatted for 45 minutes and then I cried, stopped, cried and stopped again, my perpetual state for last night. I found him in a dating app last week. Little did I know that I would be so affected by him in seconds.
Nowadays, I do a lot of self-reflection. He was good at criticising me whenever I opened up and he was never romantic in his words. It was like a slap on my face that I was never ready for, and I cry every single time it happened. I guess I needed that from a complete stranger as I am afraid I have become too egotistical.
I am meeting him tomorrow but our conversation did not end well. It was 10 p.m and I cried myself to sleep, still curled up under the blanket.
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